"Honour your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you." Ex20:12

Supposed to be posted on 21st July 2008

For the last few days, this verse " Honor your father and your mother" keeps coming back to me.. no matter day or night; it just keep repeatedly appeared to me. But I just don't know why so I just ignore it as I'm have put my focus to make sure I have the right decision using on my own understanding and strength.

To be frank, deep down in my heart I'm not willing to let go but I knew it well that I can no longer be selfish anymore, I need to learn to care for others especially my parents. All these while, my focus is what I want and how my parents can provide to me; never ever in my thoughts that I ever think of what can I do to my parents. Their unconditional love has pampered and spoilt me!!! Since young till now, they are always my best supporters in the earth !! Even though I have make thousands of mistakes and failed them; they comforted me and said.. "It's ok! WE love U"!! Do I deserve this? "YES" was the answered in my mind all this while because for me, this is the 'standard criteria' of parents! How wrong am I!!! And what a shame to me!!!

After much conflict within myself, finally I have decided to make the decision to stay back in Malaysia to further my studies. As I informed my parents on my final decision, they were just like the world most happiest person and all their burden is release!!! To be frank, I feel relief after I made the decision and I just dont understand why that I still believe my dream will not just ended here... I will make it a reality ONE DAY and I'm confidence God will watch over me, if this is HIS WILL and not mine!

As I have done with my decision making, I have shared it with one of my best friends in overseas, what I told her was only " Honor your parents" and she reminded me of the next God's promise when I honored my parents; which is "...so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you" In Ex 20:12.

What I would said is as long as I honor God; His promised never fails! I Love YOU, Jesus!

Thank YOU very much, LORD!

Today is a great day for me as God answered my prayer and He is just there when I needed HIM the most.. Everything is very routine to me during my working hrs but I thank God that I managed to earn some orders for the company before I left. I'm always proud of myself as a 'PREMIUM' trader... (hehe...) But very soon.. all this will only become part of the 'history' or experience in my life and for the company, it just a figure that they normally earned monthly. Haha... how sarcastic it sounds rite.... but no one can deny that this is the FACT! If you ask me whether I will be missing my colleagues, business contacts or partners and customer or not; YES will definitely be my answer. Some of my contacts that knew my leaving End Aug, we just simply cant help by changing the relationship status from contacts to friends. I really Thank God for sending 'real friends' into my workplace.

After ending the hectic day; another side of 'hectic' was just the beginning... mainly due to misunderstanding, we spent the whole nite 'debating' over it. To be frank, I came to that meeting with ' no peace' in my heart even though I have prayed over it but still I'm struggle to get over the 'feeling' in the meeting. God's way is always the most 'sweetest' and BEST way! HE use another person to clear the 'misunderstanding' that we spent more than 1 hr to talk using God's word! hahaha.... Hallelujah and PRAISE His HOLY NAME! What I learned thru this incident is.. If you are doing God's work; God will be there to speak to us when we are lost!
God will watch over His Shepherd because if His shepherd is lost and confused, how the shepherd going to lead the sheep? HE will not let us 'figure it out' ourself, He will LEAD and shepherd HIS shepherd.

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God bless everyone..