Live Life with a Purpose

It has been borthering me for the whole week and I just dont know why!
I have treated my 'boss' and colleagues very badly that I'm the best example of a Sunday christian and not 'glowing' for the Lord in my mktplace. I hate who I'm at that time; but my emotion just took over me which caused me to concentrate on it rather than really do sth to over it! It has reached a point that I'm planning a date to tender my resignation again due to the fustration that i had. I thank God that eventhough I have an extremely 'blues' weekdays but God never stopped talking to me via my bros and sis in church. To be frank I'm wondering who I am today if God is not there to watch over me! The actual temper, emo, thoughts and action that within me; without God, none of it bring glory to Him.

I still remember there's one time, my boss mentioned abt the temper that each one of us has in workplace; but when he come to me, he dont know what to say on my temper as I never really show it (besides my dark face with the sign "dont get near"), nth more gua.. i think. It's not easy to lead ppl when all of them sees you as the same as them. I thank God again for the wisdom He gave me to deal with some communications problem in work places and it works well so far. But in order to speak with authority and wisdom, I have a long way to learn from God.

I have been praying for quite some times on the areas that I can serve the Lord as I'm now not really involved in any areas of the church ministry besides attending shared group. Someone and pastor have apporached me on one of the role in church that will be vacant as one of the sister will be leaving soon. I have struggled over the decision whether to take up the role/task or not as this role need a person who is very organised and systematic. No one will believe that this is the Tracy that they know if that person knows me well cause I'm extremely inorganized! I have talked to several person on this role and one things that touched and speaks to me is that if your heart is willing, God will just bless you! The church don't really need the most talented ppl to serve there but a willing heart is the most important. So....

Last nite, I have said 'YES' to be the church secretary and be one of the council members. It's a privilenge and honor for me to serve the Lord but this secretary roles, is the role that if possible I will do my best to runaway from. I hate to do documentations and inorganised person but I took up this challenge because I see the need of the church in this area and also it's a training ground for myself to be more organised and systematic. May the Lord bless me!

My MBA course going to start soon... I'm getting nervous and worried as it has been long time that I left my colleage and this is my first expereince in working + study at the same time! Not easy but for dream and knowledge, I have to strive over it. Please pray that I can cope with it when the class started in mid Nov 2008. (Actually... what I'm going to miss most is my 'traveling' ... going to be less and less soon..)